and hiding it?? some new stuff i am looking into for the emotional future project: there's an expert on emotions named paul ekman... a psychologist... who has been publishing books on emotions for fifty plus years. he lives out in northern california and works with...

What are you feeling? Can you locate the feeling in your body? Can you locate your body? Can you locate a doctor who can locate your body? If you don’t like doctors, try a lover. If you don’t want a lover, perhaps a personal trainer. To host a feeling in my body. The...

I was disappointed, unsettled, and even ashamed that my curiosity and research around emotional entities led me to L. Ron Hubbard. L Ron Hubbard, for those who don't know, is the founder of Scientology. Like Charles Manson, he is dead. Or more accurately, he has "left...

(just a reminder that i am making myself the subject of this experiment. i therefore speak as a fictional character, the subject "elizabeth." and also, i am reporting all this as the scientist in the white coat, Dr.T.) What did I do? Scrambled for connection and...

i "live tweeted" macbeth next up: Othello tweets: goal. identify feelings. looking at shakespeare as a template for the reporting of human emotion. the theory i am playing with has to do with feelings as entities that are evolving. that feelings are not unlike viruses...

"re-examine all you have been told in school or church or in any book, and dismiss whatever insults your own soul" walt whitman here's a feeling i was struggling with this week.. i felt bullied by a woman... bullied by a woman... bullied by a woman....(echo echo echo)...

  In the past, I distracted myself… or tormented myself…enslaved myself? with the fantasy, illusion, delusion, obsession that I could get other people to do for me what me what I could only do for myself. … the simple gift of paying attention to my feelings,...

I've been reading, or trying to read, this collection of lectures by the physicist Richard Feynman. theoretical physicists spend a lot of time making things up. they test these ideas later to see if their theories actually hold. this is the way experimenting works in...

today i am starting, officially or unofficially, my new writing experience. i just finished printing another final final final final final revision of the novel i have been working on for the last, gulp, six years. gosh maybe seven years? i don't have the balls to...